That Evening Sun Go Down...!!!

A very famous collection of short stories by William Faulkner "That Evening Sun Go Down". Although his stories were often dark and almost always Southern, his stories always had people from all walks of life, young and old, black and white, rich and poor, man and woman and so on.

But for me, the Evening Sun has always reminded me of "Hope". There is always a new morning after a dark night. I enjoy watching sunset's pinwheels of peach and lavender, slowly exploding into bright orange ribbons, and I think, the sensory misers will inherit the earth but before that they will make it not worth living on. But, then something strikes to me, as again watch they sky, the sun keeps going down very fast and the dark night covers us all over, I think of those flamingo ribbons merging with the charcoal night and giving me hope, that there is always a bright morning after each night, the world can be a better place, full of love.

"Even if the heart aches, even if the mind is confused, even if the soul is lost and love off track, there still is hope to soothes us down...!!!"

 

Pic credit: my husband, Location: Lansdowne (Uttarakhand)

  "यह शाम मेरी मुट्ठी में बंद रेत की तरह है  

इसको जितना पकड़ने की कोशिश करो, 

यह हाथों से उतनी ही छूटती जाती है, 

वक़्त के हर लम्हे के साथ कुछ बिखर सी जाती है, 

कहीं कुछ दरक रहा है, चटक रहा है कुछ कहीं, 

करीब और करीब, 

नज़दीक और नज़दीक आते आते, 

फिर कुछ छूट रहा है, कुछ दूर जा रहा है, 

रह गए हैं सिर्फ सन्नाटे, 

कुछ यादें,और; 

थोड़ी सी तन्हाई......."

 

Translation:

 

"Oh this evening,

It's like a sand in my hand,

The more I try to hold it tight

It slips away from me,

It's falling apart every minute

Something is split

Something crackled, somewhere

Close, even closer

Something is left behind, 

Something is going far away,

All left with me is Silence

Few memories, and

little bit of Loneliness..."

 

 

Moon; The wandering Soul...!!!

I feel I have a wild, wandering soul.

I wander every night, a short distance, sometimes a long walk, sometimes in my thoughts and sometimes in my dreams, but I wander each night, looking out for you.  In dark nights, or nights full of stars, nights which are covered in fog or just a normal night. 

"When I look up,
I see you in gold,
Sometimes in silver
And sometimes bold,
I must say
You are the Sun
To the night,
Because of you
My dreams are bright,

You play the game of
Hide and seek
Wherever you are
And whenever it's right,
I am sure,
You will come out
And show your sight,
Oh my heart, oh my Soul,
You are such a wanderer
And I am a lost soul,
For everyone like me
You are the source of
Greatest bliss,
I keep awake to
Send you kiss...."

Well as the night deepens, I wonder, how much ones life is lost in waiting. I was also waiting for you, as always, but you didn't come. It doesn’t matter how many times you leave, it will always hurt, It doesn't matter how many times you don't turn up, it will always hurt, it does not matter how many times you try to make up for this, The ache, that would not leave.

Pic courtesy: my husband, Location: Alwar

जानते हो
दर्द क्या होता है?
किसी को पाके
खोना क्या होता है?

उम्मीद क्या होती है

उम्मीद का टूटना क्या होता है?

जानते हो,

मुस्कुराते चेहरों के पीछे भी

अक्सर दर्द छुपा होता है

गहरी शाँत आँखों में

अक्सर एक सैलाब रुका होता है

जानते हो.... ?
नहीं जानते तुम

वक़्त का इंतज़ार क्या होता है?

नहीं जानते तुम

प्यार का नशा क्या होता है?

नहीं जानते तुम

तड़पना क्या होता है?

नहीं जानते तुम

कि कैसे जागती हूँ मैं

रात भर तन्हा

जब सो जाते हो तुम

नींद के आग़ोश में

मैं और चाँद भटकते हैं

रात भर तनहा....

क्या ये जानते हो तुम?

नहीं, नहीं जानते तुम

और, जानोगे भी कैसे

लम्हा लम्हा इंतज़ार किया

मैंने जिस लम्हे का

वो लम्हा आया तो

पर यूँ ही निकल गया...."

"A Journey; best measured in Friends rather than Miles!!!

Hmm....here I am, almost after a month, really a long break from writing since I started this blog platform, but what to do, work priorities and commitments are keeping me away from blogging these days. And this beautiful experience is, journey of ones life.

We all have stories to tell, stories full of wisdom, stories full of life, all we need to do is to "Focus on the journey, not the destination" joy is always found in walking ahead and not in stopping or looking back.

Do not ever fear taking a step ahead,my experience says that "fear limits you and your vision". The journey is so valuable and full of rich experiences,  but believing in your talents, your abilities and your self worth can empower you to walk down an even brighter path.

“Dance. Smile. Giggle. Marvel. TRUST. HOPE. LOVE. WISH. BELIEVE". Most of all, enjoy every moment of the journey, and appreciate where you are at this moment instead of always focusing on how far you have to go.

Meet new people, talk to strangers, give a smile to someone, build a trust, give hope, make friends....!!!

Pic credit: am sure you all know by now ;-), Location: My home

"कितनी अजब दास्ताँ थी
ज़ुबाँ पर लफ़्ज़ थे मेरे,

कुछ न कहने की मजबूरियाँ क्यों थी,

होती है हकीक़त गर बात दिलों की

फिर हमारे दरमियान

इतनी खामोशियाँ क्यों थी,

बुने थे रेशमी धागों से

कुछ ख्वाब हमने,

फिर हमारी आँखों को

नींद नसीब क्यों न थी

इधर मेरे होठों पर

एक अजब सी जुम्बिश

उधर तेरे दिल के तालों में राज़ कई

न समझ सका कोई

सरगोशियाँ हवाओं की,

हमारे हिस्से में
इतनी आँधियाँ क्यों थी,

तुम्हें गुरेज़ मेरी चन्द बातों से

मैं भी परवाज़ की थी हामिल,

आज इस मोड़ से जब

पलटकर देखती हूँ,

तो लगता है,

मंज़िल इतनी करीब थी मेरे,

फिर सफर में इतनी दूरियाँ क्यों थीं....."

Keep the hope alive...!!!

This is not the usual day like other work days for me, but it's different. A new chapter has been added. After lot of tiresome days and night stress, long hours of discussions, late night working, walking down in narrow streets in hot summers of Delhi, getting the things done from uneducated, sweaty labor, finally here I am with a New Chapter in my life, the launch of new factory, which actually is keeping me away from writing blogs.

But not to disappoint myself and to you all, here I am with my new post :-)

I envy people who know how to talk to him, my heart begins to pound whenever I see him and he forces me to forget all what I have had rehearsed in my mind. For me, not being able to tame my heart is the one failure I cherish the most.

"The fire in my heart is strong enough to keep my hope alive..."

Pic credit: my husband, Location: Neemrana Fort, Rajasthan

"हर बार मिलती हूँ तुमसे 

फिर भी तुमसे मिलना बाकि है,

हर मुलाक़ात लगती पहली है,

और कभी आख़री  है

मुहोब्बत जानती है मेरी 

की अभी हमें मिलना बाकि है... 

दौर बदलते रहते हैं 

और सब में होते हैं किरदार मेरे जैसे 

पुराने क़िस्सों में ज़िक्र है मेरा 

नयी कहानियों में, मुझे 

अभी लिखना बाकि है... 

रस्ते बहुत थे और मुश्किल था सफर भी 

अपनी मंज़िल की तलाश है मुझे 

तुम तक पहुंचना अभी बाकी है 

बताया था किसी ने,

सौ राहें जाती है तेरी तरफ 

उलझ गयी हूँ रास्तों की पहेली में,

मुहोब्बत का मेरी और तड़पना बाकि है... 

देखा था मैंने एक ख्वाब 

तुझसे मिलने का इस ज़मीं पर 

अभी उस ख्वाब का पूरा होना बाकि है 

ले ले एक बार मुझे 

अपने बांहों के घेरे में,

की मेरी साँसों का रुकना और 

रूह का बिछड़ना अभी बाकि है...."

Silence is a sound in itself...!!!

The hard earned habit of being Silent...!!!

These days, there is so much noise surrounding us that we forget what real silence sounds like. One should take out some time, enjoy the moment that is listening to nothing and everything. Try it, there will be a moment when you will feel that silence is the loudest sound you have ever heard.

With our lives constantly busy these days, specially our fingers on the keypads and ears with earplugs, we are not only keeping our mind busy all the time but we are also missing on the opportunity to enjoy the moments of being with oneself.

Silence has it's own language, and in this hour, I find words for myself, for Him, for her, for you my friend, for them, for everyone.

People say that silence will not protect you but with time I have learned that silence has it's own dimension, you need not to reply, to retaliate, to scream, to shout out loud, to cry, instead if you stay silent, it helps you to stay content in your life, to keep moving and time sets everything right.

In case you have someone in your life who understands your silence, believe you me friend, you are the richest person on this earth and can't ask for anything then having blessed with such a soulmate.

All I remember now, are not the words of my enemies or bitter relationships but the Silence of my friends...!!!

Avoid arguments, explanation, keep calm, time will heal all...!!! 

Pic credit: you surely know by now, Location: somewhere after midnight

 

"मैंने तुमसे मुहोब्बत की है

तेरे अक्स से मुहोब्बत की है
तेरे एहसास से मुहोब्बत की है

तेरी साँसों से मुहोब्बत की है

साथ नहीं है तू मेरे

पर मैंने तो तेरी यादों से मुहोब्बत की है

चाहा था शायद किसी लम्हे तूने भी मुझे

मैंने उस लम्हे से मुहोब्बत की है

एक अधूरा ख्वाब सा लगता है

अब तुझसे मिलना

मैंने तो तेरे इंतज़ार से मुहोब्बत की है

खो जाने दे मुझे आज इन यादों की गलियों में

गुज़रा है तू जिस राह से भी

मैंने हर उस राह से मुहोब्बत की है

न जाने गुज़र रही है किस उम्मीद पे, ज़िन्दगी मेरी

मैंने तो तेरे नाम की आहट से भी मुहोब्बत की है...."

I love the silent hour of night...!!!

Have you ever wondered that there are nights which you never want to end but with disappointment you watch the darkness stride forward. It happens with all of us, but I simply love the silence of night, time like this reminds me of a very famous poem by Anne Bronte;

"I love the silent hour of night,
For blissful dreams may then arise,
Revealing to my charmed sight
What may not bless my waking eyes..."

This is that ungodly hour, when I ask, may I kiss you then? And then my pen moves to kiss the paper. It is that hour of night when the sky gets darker and darker and darker, and then all you see are sparkling stars and feel the breeze on your face. This is the time when you start missing moments, friends, people, life.

But what amaze me is being myself at this hour, I am the way a life unfolds and bloom and seasons come and go. I live in my own flames, sometimes burning too bright and too wild, to make things last or handle myself.

I am here, and I love you, and I do not care if anyone listen to my heart at this time, all I care for is this undisturbed moment, in which I am completely yours, only yours.

I have loved the life too fondly to be fearful of the darkness...!!!

Pic credit: My husband, Location: Neemrana Fort, Rajasthan

" यूँ  तो भँवरे भी मचलते हैं फूल पर
 ये जो मेरा दिल मचल गया तो है बात क्या

बारिशों के मौसम में यूँ तो

पपीहे को भी है आदत रोने की

ये जो आज मेरी आँखें रो दी हैं तो है बात क्या

तलब है जहाँ में सबको प्यार की

मैंने जो थोड़ा सा तलाश लिया, तो है बात क्या

यूँ तो उजालों की चाह होती है सबको ही

मैंने जो थोड़ी रौशनी मांग ली तो है बात क्या

तुझे पाने की आरज़ू साथ लेके

सोती हैं ये आँखें रोज़ यूँ ही

आज ख्वाब में तुझे मांग लिया तो है बात क्या

खिलखिलाने की चाहत है सबको तेरे संग यूँ ही

मैंने तेरे संग तन्हाई को मांग लिया तो है बात क्या

तारों भरी रात में यूँ तो चाँद भी भटकता है रात भर

पाकर आज तुझे इतना करीब

ये मन मेरा मचल गया तो बात है क्या...."

The life battle, to hang on or to let go...!!!

Every relationship that has hit a crossroads has asked, “What is it that you want from me? Well, this is the time to rethink, relive, re try.  It's not easy to fall in love again but it it is not the end of life too. I agree that starting over can be the scariest thing in the entire world, whether it’s a decision to love again or leaving a lover, studying again or leaving a school, a team, a friend or anything else.

Always listen to your gut and if your gut is telling you that something here isn’t right or feels unsafe, I really wish that you listen to your inner voice.

Our life is like a book, the only difference that it has no last page, every page you turn you get a new blank page to write your own story the way you want it. Just take the first step, you need not to worry about anything and keep your hopes high, you will find what you have been searching your whole life. Sometimes in the form of love, sometimes pain, sometimes loss and sometimes gain.

I still don't know what I am looking for, what more do I need, I have you, I love you, whether you are in person or not, nothing changes, it makes no difference to me. I am living for you and loving you. You are one wish which should never complete, so that I keep craving for more, keep hanging to the edge, keep hoping to love you more by each day, keep desiring you.

It’s amazing, really, how in one instant desires climbed over. Love can be shattered, illusions dashed, dreams irrevocably ruined. Given the right frame of mind, within a heartbeat, people can begin the business of starting over again and that is how we should all live, no reasons to think about the past but all hopes to Re think, relive, re try, re love...!!!

Pic credit: as always :-), Location: Kanatal, Uttarakhand

"तू ही बता दे तुझे क्या लिखूँ

आरज़ू ए जान लिखूँ या

जान ए आरज़ू लिखूँ ,

ले उड़ा फ़िर कहीं

तेरा ख्याल हमें,

ज़रा हौले हौले सम्हाल हमें,

निसार कर दूँ ज़िंदगी

तेरी एक निगाह पर,

एक उम्र गुज़र गयी इंतज़ार में 
इसका नहीं मलाल हमें,

आरज़ुओं पे जीते रहे उम्र भर

आज भी पशेमान आरज़ू"

I am not lost, I am a wanderer...!!!

What is the feeling you get when you are driving away from the crowd? We all search for some inner peace, some love and care, we wish to see new things, but what is more important, is not to see the new place but to have new eyes, well all I mean to say is to look things differently, instead of only seeing the scenic beauty, see further, a new perspective.

When I travel, I look for many things in my life, I get awfully greedy, I want everything from life.
I want to be a woman and to be a man, to have many friends and to have loneliness, to work much and write good , to travel and enjoy myself, to be selfish and to be unselfish… You see, it is difficult to get all which I want.

Travel brings back love, we travel, some of us forever, to seek other places, other lives, other souls. I will never be content with sedentary life, I will always be haunted by thoughts of sun rise or sun sets elsewhere.

"Go far enough, one day, you will meet yourself..."

Pic credit: my husband, Location: Kanatal, Uttarakhand

"कहीं दूर
गहरे नीले पहाड़ों के पीछे से झांकती
पीली रौशनी
ये खुला आसमान
और डूबता हुआ सूरज
तेज़ हवा के झोंकों से
झूमते हुए ऊंचे देवदार
बल खाती पगडंडियाँ
और पहाड़ों से आती
झींगुरों की आवाज़
ले चले हैं ये सब
मुझे एक अलग दुनिया में
बैठ के किश्ती में प्यार की
सो गयी हूँ साहिल की खोज में
रूठ गयी हूँ ज़िन्दगी से
मुहोब्बत की खराश में
थक चुकी हूँ अब मैं
इस प्यार की तलाश में
ऐ मुहोब्बत
कभी मेरी फ़िक्र भी कर लिया कर
जिस से करती हूँ इश्क़ मैं
कभी जाकर
उसके दिल से मेरा ज़िक्र भी कर लिया कर
बारिश की इन बूंदों में
इस सावन कुछ ऐसा कर
कुछ कतरे मैं जमा करूँ 
कुछ तू जमा कर
आ जाएं जितने हथेली में
समझ लेना
उसे मुहोब्बत मेरी
जो फिसल जाएं हाथों से
उसे, चाहत मेरी... "

Dreams and desires...!!!

I love myself, my crazy lifestyle, my discipline, my freedom of speech, driving bikes, I even love my dark circles under the eyes, they make me realize how hard I have been trying to meet the deadlines and I may be tired. And this leads me to relax myself, to do things I love, smell the rain, feel the dew, loose hairs in cool breeze at late nights, watching sky full of stars or to dream.

Dreams, which takes me back in the world of hope, into the world of smiles, love and desires...!!!

 

Keep dreaming, keep desiring, keep seeking...!!!

Pic credit: my husband, Location: Chail, Himachal Pradesh

 

 

" रात ढली, अंधेरों के केशों की गठरी खुली,

पूरे दिन की थकान,

आखिर; अलसाए सूरज ने समेट ली,

पहरों को थपकियाँ देने,

नींद की डोली चली,

हरी दूब पर पूनम परी,

ओस कणों को छूने चली,

क्षितिज के करवट लेते ही,

लजाई चांदनी,

मेरे ख्वाबों से मिलने चली......"

When the soul meets The Soul...!!!

People who know me, knows very well my fancy of clicking the sunrise and sun sets. I always find them so mesmerizing, beautiful and so full of hope, energy and love.

Every sunrise gives me the strength to move ahead in life, take a forward step to complete the uphill tasks and to draw my own path. Most people say that one should not watch the sun set as it fills you up with negative energy and thoughts and it's better to see the sunrise. But I do not agree to this, I love watching sunsets and they give me the chance to dream.  

Dream to start afresh the next day, dream to fall in love, dream to hope for best.

I love it when the blue of the night meets the gold of the day, there merging sometimes is the most enchanted moments of all the 24 hours. A sunset or sunrise can be ablaze with brilliance and arouse all the passion, all the yearning, to the soul.

"When the sun meets the dark, the Soul meets the Soul..."

Pic credit: myself :-) , Location: Gurgaon Home

 

"ढलता सूरज घिर रहा है

संध्या बेला में कुछ इस तरह, जैसे

काले केशों के मध्य से

गुज़र रहा है मेरी मांग का सिन्दूर जैसे,

चंचल पंछी , अधीर खग

उत्सुक हैं नीड़ अपने पहुँचने को

पिघल रही है सुरमयी आभा

काली रात में बदलने को,

दिख रहा है पोखर पीला पीला

अम्बर नहीं अब नीला नीला

मेरी मांग का सिन्दूर रोज़

इस नभ में फ़ैल जाता है

मेरी आँखों का काजल

धीमे धीमे रात में बदल जाता है,

कुछ इस तरह

मैं तुझमें सिमट जाती हूँ

तू मुझमें डूब जाता है..."

You take my heart away...!!!

I heard some sound, I got up, switched on the side lamp and looked at the time. Night is about to break into dawn, late night early morning kind of wee hours. I am still wondering, what the sound could be. When again I heard some noise. I got up from the bed and started walking towards the window. The sound was getting clear now, it felt like heavy breathing. I noticed two shadows behind the trees, lying hand in hand under the soft light of full moon.

I got nearer to the window pane and tried to see more clearly. She was young and so was he, it seemed like they have known each other for ages. She was moving close to him and he, he was quietly running his fingers in her long dark hairs. They sat like that for long, something was in her eyes, and he was trying to read those deep eyes.

When suddenly she turned towards the window, our eyes met, I was taken aback as she smiled at me, I noticed she was me.

Yes, it was me; with you, tightly embraced in your arms and you were looking into my eyes, as you were asking to "sweep me off my feet". 

I woke up fully and looked at the wall clock, it was quarter to four, I realized, I was only dreaming.

"But don't they say that the morning dreams come true..."

Photo credit: my husband, Location: Somewhere in Lansdowne, Kotdwara, Uttarakhand

  

"कुछ खुमारी है नींद की

या शायद खुली हुई हैं आँखें,

नींद के आगोश में डूब रही हूँ

या खुली आँखों से देख रही हूँ
सपना कोई  

मैं सोई हूँ

पर मेरा सपना जागता है....

है रात का अँधेरा कहीं

घने जंगलों का साया है

मचल रही हूँ तेरी बाँहों में ऐसे

जैसे काले मेघों में कोई

मयूर नाचता है....

कुछ नहीं छुपा है तुझसे

मेरी हर कैफियत से तू है वाक़िफ़

ये रवानी,ये हौसले, ये सैलाब तेरे लिए

तू इस दिल का
हर राज़ जानता है....

डूब रहा है तू भी इस दरिया में

उतर रहा है धीरे धीरे मेरे सीने में

तेरी दस्तरस में है

मुहोब्बत मेरी

और तू मुझसे

मेरी ही रज़ा मांगता है.... "

 

To Love, Life or To Love Life...!!!

A loving relationship is one in which the loved one is free to be oneself, to laugh with me, but never at me; to cry with me, but never because of me; to love me, to love himself, to love being loved. Such a relationship is based upon freedom. I love you for who you are, not because you are perfect.

It's the attitude which binds or breaks the relationship. And I am happy to have this attitude.


To love life...!!!

Pic credit: my husband, Location: Patal Bhuvneshwar, Uttarakhand

"मुहोब्बत की बारिश जब भी होती है
मेरे फूल भीगते हैं, मुस्कुराते हैं
छुपने को ढूंढते हैं , आरज़ू का साया
नहीं तो, तितलियों के पंखों के नीचे
छुप जाते हैं,
मेरे मिटटी के गमलों में,
रोज़ न जाने, कितने रिश्ते,
मुस्कुराते हैं.. "

You are for me, forever n ever n ever....!!!

Do you know what it's like to love someone or what it's like to touch someone, or to feel someone in the void. We were, well, meant to be together. Some people spend their whole lives looking for that one person. I am lucky enough to have you all along.

Life is what we make it, sometimes good, sometimes bad. No matter what,  we mess up at times. People come and people leave, but love stays. So, keep your head high and chin up, because love is a beautiful feeling, no matter what happens, it will always live in your heart.

You are my strength and courage, I don't know when I fell in love for you, or how or where? But all I remember is that without problems or pride, I love you; in this way because I do not know any other way of loving you.

You are not perfect and neither am I, but love sure is...!!!

Photo credit: by now you all must be knowing it :-) Location: Home

" डर नहीं लगता मुझे, अब किसी बात से,

ना टेढ़ी पगडंडियों से;

ना गहरे समुन्दरों से,

ना किसी अभिशाप से.......

इस जहाँ से छुपकर,

एक छाओं मुझे तुम दिए हो,

कह दो की आज तुम, मेरे लिए हो....

चाँद की चांदनी मेरी,

इस रात से अभिसार मेरा,

तुम मुझे अधिकार अधरों पर दिए हो
कह दो, आज तुम मेरे लिए हो....."

Translation:

"I am not scared of anything now

neither rough path, nor deep ocean

There is no fear of any curse now...

You have concealed me from this world

And embraced me in your arms

Say, that tonight, you are for me.... 

The moon and it's light is mine

the night of confluence

 When you touch me on lips

Say it again, that;

Tonight, you are for me..."

 

I want you to smile, every single time you look at me...!!!

Every morning I wake up early, get ready, rush to catch up on to some breakfast and leave for work. I have been doing it for years and years now, I am trying to make money, trying to meet ends, I do not wish to ask anything from anyone.

Most of us has been following this routine for years, but what we miss during this period is something precious.

We miss moments, we miss opportunities to build those moments, our work lives keeps us so busy that we give a miss to bonding, love takes a back seat in our lives.

I long for something else, I realized what I need most, when I am tired or when I feel lonely, when I sit alone gazing stars or when I roam around on empty roads, all I crave for is a warm hug from you, a warm touch on my cheek, my fingers filling the gap between your fingers, a long walk, a cup of coffee at some lonesome cafe at late night, a peaceful and quite drive with the hood down, where a chilly wind touch my face and my hairs are free.

I want you to smile, every single time you look at me. I want you to know how much I love you.

I just want you and nothing else from my life...!!!

Pic credit: an old friend, Location: Goa

 

"तुम्हारे तन की चंचल खुशबू से,

खुद को महकाने का,जी चाहता है,

अथाह सागर सी गहरी इन आँखों में,

डूब जाने को जी चाहता है,

अगर कह दो तुम,

चुरा लूं, संग तुम्हारे,

कुछ पलों को;

तुम्हारे संग बारिश में;

भीग जाने को जी चाहता है;

बांहों का तुम्हारी,

जो मिले सहारा,मेरे प्यार को,

तुम्हारे रोम रोम को,

होठों से अपने छूकर,

अपने प्यार को जताने का,

जी चाहता है,

गंगा सी निर्मल तुम्हारी छवि को,

जीवन भर के लिए,

अपने दिल में बिठाने को,

जी चाहता है...."

 

A part of me, will always be waiting for you...!!!

If love must come, may it come quickly, I have a life to live, and I would love to live it in best possible way. I will wait for you, my love!!

I know waiting is the toughest thing to do ever, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you are with me, even though physically you are not at my side. I know, My Love! you are the part of my life, my dream, I have waited for you for thousand years, I'll wait thousand more.

All my life, I have waited for the moment, which will make this life complete, what else can do so then your name with me...!!! 

You can't wait for inspiration, but wait for love...

Pic credit: my husband, Location: The haunted fort of Bhangarh, Alwar (Rajasthan)

 

"तेरी मुस्कराहट से ही उगती है,

सवेरे की किरण,

तेरी नींद से ही बंद होती है,

यह खूबसूरत रात,

ये तेरी मासूमियत है,

या फिर सजदे में है, कोई फ़रिश्ता;

चिलमन उठती है,

तो यूँ उठती है नज़र, जैसे

नीली रात की

चुनरी के साए में शबनम,

और झुकती हैं तो बस, जैसे

सेज पर बैठी नयी दुल्हन,

तेरी आँखें, तेरी ख़ूबसूरत सी मासूम आँखें.......

समेट लेती हैं जब,

तेरी बाँहें मुझको,

और समेट लेती हैं मुझे, अपने वजूद में,

कितना हल्का महसूस होता है तब,

जैसे खुद से हज़ारों बोझ हट गए हों,

तेरी बाँहें, ये तेरी मज़बूत बाँहें...........

बातें उलझी हुई हैं,

मेरे सीने में,

लफ्ज़ अटके हुए हैं, होठों पर

हाथ कागज़ पर बैठते नहीं,

आ, मुझे अपनी बांहों में ले ले,

और अपनी आँखों से

कुछ सुकून दे दे,

कब से बैठी हूँ, तेरे इंतज़ार में,

अब तेरे नाम से ज्यादा;

मुक़म्मल, ज़िन्दगी क्या होगी...."

I am a wanderer...!!!

I am a romantic, and so is most of you, isn't it. Well, it's true, however our lives keeps us so busy to earn the livelihood, to make big in life that the love takes a back seat somewhere and the layers of dust (responsibilities) covers it up.

Let your memories take you in the flashback and you will find out that you were so carefree and easy going, you use to wander a lot, not that who all wander are lost but you were a free soul.

I find love is free in it's wildness, love is a wanderer,just like the drops of rain. Few of us are adventurers but I am a wanderer. Free from everything, living for being loved and to love...!!!

The real quest of wandering is not being to new places, but in having new way of looking and understanding...!!!

 

Pic credit: somebody unknown, Location: Raja ki Baoli, New Delhi

 

"बेमतलब मन कि उधेड़ बुन,
बेमतलब ही मन  उदास था,
बेमतलब ही गुमसुम गुमसुम,
भटक रहा कुछ आस पास था;
झीनी झीनी से बूँदें अब चेहरे पर नवजीवन भरती,
और अनमनी सी लट पर गिर
लटक लटक अठखेली करती;
कैद उमंगें थी जिनमे वह,
अंतर के बंधन खुलते हैं,
और मस्त इन बौछारों में,
मैल  सभी के मन के धुलते हैं,
होठों पर अब मंद मंद मुस्कान है,

बंद पलकों में बस, तुम्हारा ही नाम है,

अब लगता है,

बेमतलब ही मन उदास था,

बेमतलब ही भटक रहा कुछ आस पास था....."

 

 

There is nothing like searching...!!!

Never stop searching.

I don't know, who all reads my blogs, although I do get the data country wise (where all people have opened the link) but who are the people, I have no idea at all. But that does not stop me from searching statistics to find out the readers. That never stops me from searching myself within and to write more. Search should never end...!

Similarly one should never stop searching for the like minded people, add as many of them in your life, because they will always be the pillar of strength for you. And there is nothing more beautiful on this earth to have such people around.

The moments change everything, for a lover finding the soul mate is the most beautiful moment, for a mother having a child in her arms is the most beautiful moment on this earth. So, keep searching, search your soul, search for your soulmate, search for memories to cherish life long, almost nothing to be left when you search within.

You find treasure in places you have not searched, you find beauty when you don't look for it, you learn from unwanted journeys, it's bliss to have such experiences in life.

Keep searching, because this all led us to our eternal love...!!!

Pic credit: my husband, Location: somewhere in Landaur (a small hill town), Uttarakhand

 

"आरज़ू है तेरी एक झलक पाने की

तेरे संग जीने की, तेरे संग मर जाने की,

जानती हूँ,है प्यार तुम्हे भी मुझसे इतना

जितनी है गहराई इन आँखों में सागर छुपाने की,

बिता लूँ कुछ घड़ियाँ मैं भी संग तेरे

की बहुत आरज़ू है तेरा साथ पाने की ,

उन पलों को सजो लूँगी मैं,

उन्ही के सहारे उम्र भर जी लूंगी मैं,

तू ही है वो जो छू रहा दिल का हर अहसास है,

अब तो आजा क़रीब

की इन साँसों को बस तेरी ही तलाश है,

बस तेरी ही तलाश है...."

We'll always remember, Tonight...!!!

Something came to my mind and I started humming the words,

Can you feel the love tonight?
The peace the evening brings
The world, for once, in perfect harmony
With all its living things......

Yeah, you are right, it's from a movie from 90's, "The Lion King", a beautiful song by Sir Elton John and Tim Rice, " Can you feel the love tonight".

For a change, I saw the words in a different context today, and this is for all of you out there who believes in true love, who lives for love and one who waits for love, don't give up, keep searching your soul and your soul mate.

Once you find your love, do everything possible to keep the relationship fresh, as fresh as the first time, when you met, when you embraced your love in your arms, when you let the heart do the talking, when you were all eager to hear out till the dawn, when you thought, Oh Lord, let there be no end to this night.

Remember, somewhere inside of you there will always be the person, you have been that night...!!!

 

Pic credit: my husband, Location: a friend's wedding

 

" ये दिल है मेरा

एक खाली मकान सा

सुना है आएगा तू

आज की रात

इसे बसायेगा तू ,

होगी कितनी अनोखी

सपनों की रात

जब मिलेगी मंज़िल

आज की रात ,

क़ैद थी अब तक

बंद डिब्बों में उमंगें

खाली कमरे से दिल में

खाली थे अरमान

होगी अब चन्दन की सुरभि

दीयों की लौ

आज की रात,

एक मीठा अहसास

एक मीठा सन्नाटा

सपनों की रात

हौसलों की रात,

एक अनोखे मुसाफिर के साथ

एक नए सफर की रात

आज की रात,

फूलों की चादर

एक ठंडा झोंका

मदहोश चांदनी

टिमटिमाते तारे

गूँजेंगे सन्नाटे

होगा मधुर विश्वास

आज की रात,

खुद में सिमटती मैं

उड़ते हुए क़दम

बेपनाह इंतज़ार

न आएगी दोबारा

ऐसी मधु मिलन की रात

कैसी अनोखी होगी

आज की रात....."

Translation:

Oh! this heart of mine be an empty house,

i hear; to settle this adobe

you shall come tonight.

Oh! how wondrous, dreamy be this night, 

the destiny yearned be reached tonight.

immured was ecstasy, as if in boxes,

empty heart,empty room, empty of desires

now be fragrant as sandalwood;

bright from lights of many lamps,

this be the night, tonight.

sweet ardour, mellow is the silence,

a dreamy night, night be spirited,

a journey new, compeer sans compare

this be the night, tonight.

draped in flowers a whiff of breeze,

oh! heady! the moonshine, the sparkling stars, 

echos mellow the silence, sweet is this trust

this be the night, tonight. 

I embrace myself as my heart flies

Oh! a wait this long ,won't come again, 
this night, we meet; the sweet embrace

oh! wondrous be the night, tonight...!!!

You take my breath away...!!!

I still remember clearly when we met last, that smile, those eyes, the company, the time, the place; everything. We met, that was our fate, we became friends, that was our choice but we fell in love and I am happy that nobody tried to control it.

You appear to be mysterious, every time we meet, yet so familiar, it feels like you are a song which I have never heard before, but I have known the tune all my life.

Every morning it's a new dawn, opportunity to know you more, smile with you, hope to have more of you in my life, every night it's a new dream to start from the same thread, where we left it last.

As I sit here and whisper "I love you", I believe somehow you can still hear me.

"There is nothing more difficult than to steal a heart and hold the hand for a lifetime..."

 

Photo credit: my husband, Location: somewhere in Dhanaulti, Uttarakhand

 

"तपती धरती पर जब,  गिरती हैं बूंदे

तब सौंधी खुशबू बन

तुम महका जाते हो मेरी साँसे,

 उगते सूरज संग, चहुँ ओर तुम छा जाते हो,

 उड़ते पंछी, खिलते फूल,

सब  में तुम ही  तुम नज़र आते हो,

पिघलते सूरज की तपिश में,

ज़ुल्फ़ों को मेरी हौले हौले बिखराते हो,

जब टूटता है कोई तारा,

मेरी ख्वाहिश बन जाते हो,

नींद भरी मेरी आँखों में,

हर बार एक नया ख्वाब सजाते हो,

यूँ ही मिलते रहा करो हर बार,तुम

मुझसे मेरी एक नयी पहचान कराते हो.…।"

Love is powerful, but not forceful...!!!

What's love?

A question thought about by each one of us at least once in life, a question to which no generation could find out the perfect answer, still we all fall in love or wish to fall in love.

Is it something which is generally shown in movies, in super hit romantic songs, a girl and a boy running around trees, she wearing chiffon saris in Alps and he wearing a fur jacket with skull cap. No. Well, then what is love? Does it hurt?

Hm, I think love does not hurt. What hurts is something absolutely different, and that is Fear. Or may be Attachment, or Possessiveness.

I think love is Subtle, Selfless, Silent, Sensitive and Spacious. 

It's not to control someone but to give space to the other person, to care but not to be obsessed, to desire but to let the person go, if they want it. It's to have someone who understands you, who love listening to you, who knows that I have someone who will not judge me, instead will hear out and support, no matter what.

Love is to have someone's thought even if it is for a second, each day.

Love is powerful but not forceful...!!! 

Photo credit: my husband, Location: Terrace at Home

 "कोई ख्वाहिश नहीं कि तू हर कदम साथ हो मेरे,
दिन के बस दो लम्हें मेरे हों और तू साथ हो मेरे,
ना कोई उम्मीदों की कशिश हो,
ना वादों और हकों की कोई बंदिश,
ना हमराही होने की कोई ज़िद हो,
ना किसी मंज़िल पे मिलने की कोई ख्वाहिश,
कुछ अपनेपन के जज़्बात हों और तू साथ हो मेरे,
दिन के बस दो लम्हें मेरे हों और तू साथ हो मेरे,
तेरे बिना ज़िन्दगी यूँ ही गुज़रती रहे,
पर वक़्त का कारवाँ कहीं रुका रहे,
ना ख्वाबों में ना ख्यालों में तू रहे,
फिर भी तेरे सजदे में सिर झुका रहे,
कुछ तस्सवुर के साए हों और तू साथ हो मेरे,
दिन के बस दो लम्हें मेरे हों और तू साथ हो मेरे,
मैं तेरे लिए इंतज़ार करती रहूँ,
और तू मुझे देख ही ना पाये,
मैं तेरे लिए दुआएँ करती रहूँ,
और तू मुझे जान ही ना पाये,
कुछ ख़ामोशी की किनारे हों और तू साथ हो मेरे,
दिन के बस दो लम्हें मेरे हों और तू साथ हो मेरे,
कोई ख़्वाहिश नहीं कि तू हर कदम साथ हो मेरे,
बस जब तेरी कमी सी हो, तू साथ हो मेरे…"

Time is never right, attitude is...!!!

Few believe in "Wait & watch" and few grab the moment.

Few wait for the most convenient and suitable time to say "I love you", however they may not find one. You can't keep waiting for a producer to Produce you or a presenter to Present you, similarly, you can't keep waiting for the right time. If you won't say it, you feel incomplete, no matter your love is accepted or denied, but what's important that you expressed, else your whole life, you just keep waiting for the moment to come back in your life, incomplete inside.


Take your call, move ahead in life, be polite, respect each life, be warm, smile more, cherish each moment, spread love and please do not wait for someone else to start it, you take a step forward.

You can't keep waiting for life to start.

"Time is never right, the attitude is. Love is never over, life is..."

Photo credit: as usual :-) Location: Kankwari Fort, Sariska, Rajasthan

" चन्द नज़्में भी हैं अधूरी जो

ज़ेहन में आकर लौट जाती हैं

जैसे मायूसी की दुआ कोई,

दिल से निकले, फलक से टकराये,

और फिर बे असर ही लौट आये

कुछ भी पूरा नहीं है पास मेरे

सारे रिश्ते ही नामुकम्मल हैं,

मंजुमन्द सिलसिलों में हलचल हो

ग़म के सहराओं में भी जल थल हो

ज़िन्दगी का सभी अधूरापन,

तुम चले आओ तो मुक़म्मल हो..."

That girl with a smile...!!!

Let's play a game, truth or dare.

How often you dare to smile, the truth; we all know. When was the last time you were really sad or you cried when something was over instead of smiling that it's over.

When a new day begins, when there is a darkness, when you feel lost, when you feel tired, when the time is tough, when love hurts you, when you cross path with your lost love, when you feel great and when you feel down, the only thing needed is "Smile".

"Oh, that smile, that kills me...keep smiling".

Photo credit: my husband.,  Location: Bank of Ganges at Rishikesh, Uttarakhand

"सुबह सुबह मसल के आँखें,

झटकती हूँ जब मैं बालों के छल्ले,

ओस की बूंदों सा झरता है पानी मेरे बालों से,

यूँ ही  आ जाती हूँ मैं, उसके सामने,

वोह देखता है मुझको,

खुमारी भरी आँखों से,

और घेर लेता है  मुझको अपनी बाँहों में,

और मैं, बन जाती हूँ.....

एक शरीर- चंचल- हसीन लड़की......"

 

Translation:

 

"Early in the morning while I rub my eyes,

When I throw open my hairs,

The droplets fall from them like morning dew,

And, I come in front of Him that way,

He looks at me

with His dreamy eyes,

 covers me into His arms,

And I, turn into a

naughty, desirable girl..."

When the moment is over, the fate is sealed...!!!

Well, well, well...I am  back, after long Holi holidays (a festival of colors in India), and I am hopeful that some of you may have missed me too and few must have got a desired break from my not so good writing :-)

Coming back on the track, I have been thinking for a while about People, Memories and Dreams.
People walk in and out of our lives, but few leaves an everlasting impression, and we should never let them go. Because when we do, we feel the pain life long. I know, at times we are deeply hurt, though at that time we have no idea, how deeply. And we learn many things from that experience, but when we look back on it, we realize that all we gained was one single thing, Love.

Our life's written in indelible ink, there is no going back to earse the past, tweak the mistakes we made or fill in missed opportunities.

"When the moment is over, the fate is sealed..." 

Pic courtesy : my husband. Location : Bhangarh fort, Alwar, Rajasthan

 

"लोगों की भीड़ में भी तेरा

अलहैदा होना अच्छा लगा,

ठहरी गहरी आँखों से

यूँ मुझे देखना अच्छा लगा,

वो तेरा कहते कहते कुछ

रुक कर मुस्कुराना अच्छा लगा

कहा तो कुछ भी नहीं, फिर भी

हाथों को होंठ पर रखकर

रोकना अच्छा लगा,

दिल में कितने इरादे थे

दूर रहने के तुझसे,

तू मिला, तो सब इरादे

तोडना अच्छा लगा,

जा रहा था दूर तू मुझसे,

फिर भी तेरा

पलट कर देखना अच्छा लगा..... "

Holi And My Love...!!

Well, this must be love...!!

I am traveling, having fun time and all I can think of is Holi with my Love!! Am sure this is Love.
Running short of time but thought of wishing you all a very happy, colorful and safe Holi.

Pic credit: myself :-)

 ''बहक गया मन मेरा,
देख सुनहरी धूप और मंद बयार,
चहक चहक देखूं मैं चहुँ ओर, छतनार
मन साथी खोज रहा,
ठगिनी बहे बयार
कहीं पीले टेसू  से सजी धरती,
कहीं लाल पलाश लगाए आग,
भीगे यह तन, पर पलक ना भीगे आज
झुके नैन, झुकते जाए
सफ़ेद तन पे, चुनरी लाल सलाज,
कहीं बिखरे गुल मोहर, कहीं अमलतास
कभी खनक चूड़ियों की, कभी ढोलक की थाप
सुबह सुहानी आप से, श्याम सलोनी छाप,
ऐसे खेलूँ फाल्गुन मैं आज,
बुझ जाए इन नैनन की प्यास...."

The eyes can say a lot more...!!!

The eyes can say a lot more than mouth...!!! You don't need to utter a word or make any noise but just a glance says it all. How lucky are those who get to do the talking by eyes, soft, calm, deep, sensitive, seductive, secretive, glittering, sparkling, moist eyes.

Where do you hide love, your heart but who ditches you, is your eyes. The secret of love is always hidden in the eyes. It's always the best feeling in which the eyes communicated and spoke, when the lips never moved.

And here comes my secret, the simplest one.....my eyes tells it to me all the time, I love you...!!!

Photo credit: my husband, Location: Lake Palace, Udaipur, Rajasthan

 "खिलते हैं फूल मुहोब्बत के

तेरी झील सी गहरी आँखों में

देख ले जो तू मुझे, एक नज़र

तेरी खुशबू बिखर जाए

रखते हूँ इन पलकों को झुका के मैं,

जब देखते हो तुम यूँ प्यार से मेरी ओर

सुना है तुम, आँखों से अपना बना लेते हो,

गुज़र रही थी यूँ ही ज़िन्दगी

अब तमन्नाह हुई है फिर जीने की

न देख यूँ एक टुक मुझे

की कुछ तो राज़ है सनम, तेरी निगाह में...."

Lifestory....the way to amaze yourself !!!

Everybody has a life story, which play a pretty good role on deciding that what they will do tomorrow. For me, my life story stops at one person, it moves around of that one person only, because "he is my life", not only he is my life story but also "my love story".

When I look back (yeah, I am not the one who don't look back) there are so many moments to cherish, so many people to relive my life with. I feel that I am blessed to have found Him rather I am extremely blessed to live a really awesome life, one that I would not trade for anything in the world.

Love to live, relive these small treasures of life and create a life story...!!!

Photo credit: my husband. Location: farm fields on the way to Chandigarh

"ना जाने कैसी होने लगी हूँ मैं
तेरी यादों में जीने लगी हूँ
वो ठंडी हवाएं जब छूती हैं मुझे
तब धीमी सी तेरी आवाज़ को
सुनने लगी हूँ मैं
यूँ ही वजह बेवजह
नम होने लगती हैं मेरी आँखें
तुझे याद करते करते
नींदें खोने लगी हूँ मैं
जब चाँद तेरी याद दिलाता है
दूर फैला आसमान
तेरी बाँहें बन जाता है
जब बैठ नदी किनारे
बहते पानी में तू नज़र आता है
ना जाने कब तेरे इतनी करीब हो गयी
तेरी मुहोब्बत मेरा नसीब हो गयी
अनजान लोगों से मिलने लगी हूँ
तेरी ही बातें करने लगी हूँ
साँसों में अपनी तुझे बसाने लगी हूँ
गीतों में अपने तुझे गुनगुनाने लगी हूँ
तेरी यादों में जीने लगी हूँ
तेरी यादों में मर जाने लगी हूँ....... "