"एक अधूरा सा प्यार..." (An incomplete love...)

 "You will always be an unfinished part of me...!!"

Every time when I write something; a poem or my thoughts, or when I paint something, or may be when I work on something, initially it feels complete to me. But, then every time when I go through my pages again, everything seem so incomplete. I stare at my paintings, I re-read my poems, I stare at my work for hours and I see so many flaws in it, I find every poem, every story, every work incomplete. Still I see many of you liking what I write and that's something which make me believe that even incomplete thoughts, feelings, stories, poems, paintings, artworks are actually not incomplete, because "great is not really great, humility is'.

"I have so much left to say to you", unending feelings, long walks, silent words, sky full of stars, coffee mugs, favorite books, long drives, common friends, soulful music and the list goes on, "I don't know, what I am still hoping".

"There is only one happiness in life, to love and to be loved..."

Image courtesy: man in life, Location: en route to Nainital, Uttarakhand

 

"ठंडी सुबह में कोहरे की धुंध सा
पेड़ों के पत्तों पर ओस की बूंदों सा
चूल्हे में लकड़ी से लिपटी
आग सा
काली रातों में शर्म से सिमटी
अदाओं सा है प्यार
अब कैसे बताऊँ तुम्हें
की कैसा है ये प्यार

पागल है मीरा सा,
राधा के इंतज़ार सा
निर्मल है गंगा सा,
सम्पूर्ण गीता के सार सा
शीरीं के फरहाद सा,
हीर के रांझे सा
मजनू की हर चोट में
लैला की आह सा प्यार,
कैसे अब बताऊँ तुम्हे,
कि कैसा अलबेला है ये प्यार,
मैं तुझमें हूँ 
क्या तू मुझमें है,
बस इस एक सवाल के जवाब सा
एक अधूरा सा प्यार..."

Translation:

foggy in cold mornings

just like dew drops on the leaves

burning hot like fire

in stove

full of shyness, in dark nights

now how should i tell you

that how love is...

mad like Meera,

waits like Radha

pure like Ganges

summarised like Geeta,

Like Farhad of Sheeri

like Ranjha of Heer

like every wound of Majnu

like concern of Laila

now how do i tell you

how unique is this love

I am in you,

But are you in me?

Just like an answer to this question

an incomplete love...."

 

रूह फना ना हो जाए...(Soul may perish...!!!)

 Here I come again, only for you...!! I want you to hold me in your loving arms, I want you to need me like i need you all the time, I continue to breath because I continue to think about you, about the time spent, about the memories created, about you, me, everything.

For me loving you is like painting the canvas, in the starting, it's only an idea but as the time goes, it's built up through adjustments, corrections, errors, trust till you come up with your final artwork.

"Love without limits, laugh till you cry,smile till your mouth hurts and live till you die..."

Image courtesy: An old friend, Location:Fatehpur Sikri

 

"हाल ए दिल बयाँ न हो जाए

बेज़ुबानी ज़ुबाँ न हो जाये,

मैं खुद नहीं हूँ वाक़िफ़ ए राह

ग़ुम कहीं मेरी मुहोब्बत का

कारवाँ न हो जाये

फिर कहीं उसकी याद आये तो

ये आरज़ू फिर जवाँ न हो जाये

सिर्फ याद ऐ बहार बाकि है

वो भी कहीं

नज़र ऐ ख़िज़ाँ ना हो जाये

कुछ सांसें अभी बाकी हैं

चले आओ

कहीं ये भी साथ छोड़ दें

और जिस्म से मेरे

रूह फना हो जाए..."

 

Translation:

The heart may open up

it may speak too

I don't know the route myself

The caravan of my love,

may get lost somewhere

What if, I remember you

somewhere again

My desires may 

revive again

Only the good memories are left

they may as well

not fade away

Come back,

few breaths are still left

what if they also leave me

and my soul may persih

someday...."

 

क्या मैं पहचान गयी तुम्हें? (Did I know you?)

I have known you nearly half my life, and once I knew you, I never wanted to know anyone else. I am sure, it wasn't the love at first sight, but I have definitely had moments, where I saw you as a person, and I was like, mm there is something different about you and I really want to get to know you.May be I don't know that much about you as I keep thinking, may be you know more about me, may be we both don't know anything about each other, there are so many, may be. But, I know this is true, I am blessed, because I was loved by you.

Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know, where you stand. And I have taken that fall. And realized that I can't ever feel lonely, because you are always in my thoughts, day and night.

"Let the thoughts be free to go anywhere, if you fall, rise again.....!!"

Image courtesy: man in life, Location: Neemrana Fort, Rajasthan

                                                                                

" तुमने सोचा न था

मैं पहचान जाऊँगी तुम्हें

सोचा कभी,

पन्नों पर उतार लूँ तुम्हें

पर तुम कोई कविता नहीं 

मेरे दिल की प्यास हो तुम

जाने जां बहुत खास हो तुम,

मेरे सीने में जो सुलगती है

वो सांस हो तुम

आँखों में जो बसता है

वो ख्वाब हो तुम,

मुझे गले लगाकर

कभी पास रहो तुम

बहुत याद आती हो

ऐसा कभी कहो तुम,

एक प्यास जमी है आँखों में 

न जाने वो क्यों नहीं पिघलती

रह जाती हैं उमड़ घुमड़ कर

पर खुलकर कभी नहीं बरसती

मैं अधूरी

मेरी प्यास अधूरी

मेरी आरज़ू,मेरी जुस्तजू अधूरी 

न जाने कब से तू

मेरी आँखों में क़ैद है

जन्मों से बिछड़ा हुआ

मेरी ज़िन्दगी का

एक अधूरा टुकड़ा.....

क्या ये सच है,

कि पहचान गयी हूँ तुम्हें?

 

Translation:

 

"You didn't think
I will recognize you
Thought sometimes,
Write you down on the pages
But you aren't poem,
you are the thirst of my heart
You know, you are very special
You are that burning breath 
Like the fire in my heart,
You are the dream
The one who dwells in my eyes
Hold me tight sometimes
stay near me
you too miss me so much
say it someday to me
A thirst is frozen
Don't know, why it doesn't melt
They wander, but never rains
I am incomplete,
my thirst is incomplete
My hope, my love
both incomplete
Don't know since when
I have imprisoned you
in my eyes
Separated from ages
An incomplete piece 
Of my life..."

Is it true,
that i Know you?