I am not lost, I am a wanderer...!!!

What is the feeling you get when you are driving away from the crowd? We all search for some inner peace, some love and care, we wish to see new things, but what is more important, is not to see the new place but to have new eyes, well all I mean to say is to look things differently, instead of only seeing the scenic beauty, see further, a new perspective.

When I travel, I look for many things in my life, I get awfully greedy, I want everything from life.
I want to be a woman and to be a man, to have many friends and to have loneliness, to work much and write good , to travel and enjoy myself, to be selfish and to be unselfish… You see, it is difficult to get all which I want.

Travel brings back love, we travel, some of us forever, to seek other places, other lives, other souls. I will never be content with sedentary life, I will always be haunted by thoughts of sun rise or sun sets elsewhere.

"Go far enough, one day, you will meet yourself..."

Pic credit: my husband, Location: Kanatal, Uttarakhand

"कहीं दूर
गहरे नीले पहाड़ों के पीछे से झांकती
पीली रौशनी
ये खुला आसमान
और डूबता हुआ सूरज
तेज़ हवा के झोंकों से
झूमते हुए ऊंचे देवदार
बल खाती पगडंडियाँ
और पहाड़ों से आती
झींगुरों की आवाज़
ले चले हैं ये सब
मुझे एक अलग दुनिया में
बैठ के किश्ती में प्यार की
सो गयी हूँ साहिल की खोज में
रूठ गयी हूँ ज़िन्दगी से
मुहोब्बत की खराश में
थक चुकी हूँ अब मैं
इस प्यार की तलाश में
ऐ मुहोब्बत
कभी मेरी फ़िक्र भी कर लिया कर
जिस से करती हूँ इश्क़ मैं
कभी जाकर
उसके दिल से मेरा ज़िक्र भी कर लिया कर
बारिश की इन बूंदों में
इस सावन कुछ ऐसा कर
कुछ कतरे मैं जमा करूँ 
कुछ तू जमा कर
आ जाएं जितने हथेली में
समझ लेना
उसे मुहोब्बत मेरी
जो फिसल जाएं हाथों से
उसे, चाहत मेरी... "

Dreams and desires...!!!

I love myself, my crazy lifestyle, my discipline, my freedom of speech, driving bikes, I even love my dark circles under the eyes, they make me realize how hard I have been trying to meet the deadlines and I may be tired. And this leads me to relax myself, to do things I love, smell the rain, feel the dew, loose hairs in cool breeze at late nights, watching sky full of stars or to dream.

Dreams, which takes me back in the world of hope, into the world of smiles, love and desires...!!!

 

Keep dreaming, keep desiring, keep seeking...!!!

Pic credit: my husband, Location: Chail, Himachal Pradesh

 

 

" रात ढली, अंधेरों के केशों की गठरी खुली,

पूरे दिन की थकान,

आखिर; अलसाए सूरज ने समेट ली,

पहरों को थपकियाँ देने,

नींद की डोली चली,

हरी दूब पर पूनम परी,

ओस कणों को छूने चली,

क्षितिज के करवट लेते ही,

लजाई चांदनी,

मेरे ख्वाबों से मिलने चली......"

When the soul meets The Soul...!!!

People who know me, knows very well my fancy of clicking the sunrise and sun sets. I always find them so mesmerizing, beautiful and so full of hope, energy and love.

Every sunrise gives me the strength to move ahead in life, take a forward step to complete the uphill tasks and to draw my own path. Most people say that one should not watch the sun set as it fills you up with negative energy and thoughts and it's better to see the sunrise. But I do not agree to this, I love watching sunsets and they give me the chance to dream.  

Dream to start afresh the next day, dream to fall in love, dream to hope for best.

I love it when the blue of the night meets the gold of the day, there merging sometimes is the most enchanted moments of all the 24 hours. A sunset or sunrise can be ablaze with brilliance and arouse all the passion, all the yearning, to the soul.

"When the sun meets the dark, the Soul meets the Soul..."

Pic credit: myself :-) , Location: Gurgaon Home

 

"ढलता सूरज घिर रहा है

संध्या बेला में कुछ इस तरह, जैसे

काले केशों के मध्य से

गुज़र रहा है मेरी मांग का सिन्दूर जैसे,

चंचल पंछी , अधीर खग

उत्सुक हैं नीड़ अपने पहुँचने को

पिघल रही है सुरमयी आभा

काली रात में बदलने को,

दिख रहा है पोखर पीला पीला

अम्बर नहीं अब नीला नीला

मेरी मांग का सिन्दूर रोज़

इस नभ में फ़ैल जाता है

मेरी आँखों का काजल

धीमे धीमे रात में बदल जाता है,

कुछ इस तरह

मैं तुझमें सिमट जाती हूँ

तू मुझमें डूब जाता है..."

You take my heart away...!!!

I heard some sound, I got up, switched on the side lamp and looked at the time. Night is about to break into dawn, late night early morning kind of wee hours. I am still wondering, what the sound could be. When again I heard some noise. I got up from the bed and started walking towards the window. The sound was getting clear now, it felt like heavy breathing. I noticed two shadows behind the trees, lying hand in hand under the soft light of full moon.

I got nearer to the window pane and tried to see more clearly. She was young and so was he, it seemed like they have known each other for ages. She was moving close to him and he, he was quietly running his fingers in her long dark hairs. They sat like that for long, something was in her eyes, and he was trying to read those deep eyes.

When suddenly she turned towards the window, our eyes met, I was taken aback as she smiled at me, I noticed she was me.

Yes, it was me; with you, tightly embraced in your arms and you were looking into my eyes, as you were asking to "sweep me off my feet". 

I woke up fully and looked at the wall clock, it was quarter to four, I realized, I was only dreaming.

"But don't they say that the morning dreams come true..."

Photo credit: my husband, Location: Somewhere in Lansdowne, Kotdwara, Uttarakhand

  

"कुछ खुमारी है नींद की

या शायद खुली हुई हैं आँखें,

नींद के आगोश में डूब रही हूँ

या खुली आँखों से देख रही हूँ
सपना कोई  

मैं सोई हूँ

पर मेरा सपना जागता है....

है रात का अँधेरा कहीं

घने जंगलों का साया है

मचल रही हूँ तेरी बाँहों में ऐसे

जैसे काले मेघों में कोई

मयूर नाचता है....

कुछ नहीं छुपा है तुझसे

मेरी हर कैफियत से तू है वाक़िफ़

ये रवानी,ये हौसले, ये सैलाब तेरे लिए

तू इस दिल का
हर राज़ जानता है....

डूब रहा है तू भी इस दरिया में

उतर रहा है धीरे धीरे मेरे सीने में

तेरी दस्तरस में है

मुहोब्बत मेरी

और तू मुझसे

मेरी ही रज़ा मांगता है.... "

 

To Love, Life or To Love Life...!!!

A loving relationship is one in which the loved one is free to be oneself, to laugh with me, but never at me; to cry with me, but never because of me; to love me, to love himself, to love being loved. Such a relationship is based upon freedom. I love you for who you are, not because you are perfect.

It's the attitude which binds or breaks the relationship. And I am happy to have this attitude.


To love life...!!!

Pic credit: my husband, Location: Patal Bhuvneshwar, Uttarakhand

"मुहोब्बत की बारिश जब भी होती है
मेरे फूल भीगते हैं, मुस्कुराते हैं
छुपने को ढूंढते हैं , आरज़ू का साया
नहीं तो, तितलियों के पंखों के नीचे
छुप जाते हैं,
मेरे मिटटी के गमलों में,
रोज़ न जाने, कितने रिश्ते,
मुस्कुराते हैं.. "